Thursday, January 12, 2017

the day my husband lost his job

i wish i could tell you that i knew this was coming, that i had some sort of intuition, or some kind of feeling.

but honestly, i had no clue. we had no clue.

it started off as any normal friday. kyle left for work, and our day went about as normal. we even met him there for lunch. nothing out of the ordinary.

then i got a call from kyle around 4 pm. i was immediately worried, because he never calls me from work unless something is wrong. the only times he has ever called me is when he was in a car accident, when someone cashed a check twice (somehow, i have no idea) and drained our account, and small things here and there that have randomly come up that required a phone call versus a text.

that is when i had the feeling: the feeling that something had happened, but i didn't know what yet.

i answered, and he told me that he was on his way home.

i asked, "oh no, are you sick?"

he simply replied, "uh, no. i actually got fired, so i'm coming home."

wait, what?

i also wish i could tell you that i had all the magic words to make him feel better, that God spoke through me to him, and that he immediately felt better.

but all i could muster in that moment was, "i'm sorry. i'm so sorry. i'm so, so sorry."

when he arrived home, i knew that no words could help him, so i just held him. i held him until the baby woke up, and things were very... quiet. we didn't know what to say, what to think, what to do.

so we literally just sat there in silence, except the random squawking coming from lilli here and there.

it wasn't until that night that we actually talked. we talked about what had happened, what we were going to do, how we were going to get health insurance, how, what, why, when. it was in that moment that God laid a calming hand on me, and said "it's going to be okay. this was no surprise to Me."

and that's exactly what i told kyle. so we stopped talking, and instead we prayed. we prayed for everything on our heart, for us, for our family, for our future. we prayed until we felt like there was nothing else to say.

and then we went to bed.

i left the next morning to have coffee with a friend, and Jesus spoke through her directly to my heart. i left that coffee date with a newfound joy: instead of being worried about the future, i was excited! there was so much possibility. so much we could do! we could actually make our dreams come true, instead of living a 9-5, paying bills, and then going to sleep.

it was put on our hearts that day that we were meant to grow our small businesses that have been apart of our lives for the last couple of years. we were meant to take them further, not for ourselves, but for His Glory. He has something big planned for us, and this was a part of that story.

we know it's going to be hard work. we know our lifestyle will not be considered normal. we know that it will require sacrifices and tough times. we know we will have hard times that will make us ask "what are we doing?!"

but we are certainly in no place to tell Him no.

we have no idea what is in store for us, but we are choosing not to worry (at least trying our hardest), and instead, choosing to be joyful. there is joy in the journey, and that joy is HIM!

if you find yourselves to be in a situation that makes you ask "what is going on? what are we going to do? why did this happen?", the only piece of advice i can give you is to pray. pray until you can't think of anything else to pray for.

He is faithful, my friends. He is there. He will guide you, help you, love you, hold you, comfort you, uphold you with His righteous right hand {Isaiah 41:10}.

all you have to do is trust Him.



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xoxo, Brandi

6 comments:

  1. Brandi, you are such a ray of sunshine! To be able to have something like that happen and to turn it into something so positive so quickly is just amazing! YOU are amazing and you are going to do amazing things, and I'm really excited to follow along with you on your journey!

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    1. You are so sweet! Thank you so much Lindsay!!

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  2. What an amazing testimony!! I love his and it gives me chills. God is so good! <3

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  3. I am so sorry to hear this! But your outlook and perspective is inspiring!!

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  4. This is a great story! Thanks so much for sharing!

    xx
    Lauren Elizabeth
    Petite in Pearls

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